Okay, so i decided to write in english from now on. I was sitting here, in my room, writing an essay for my english class and i realized how much of my english i lost already. It is extremely sad... But I am going to do something about it by writing on this blog in english.

 

Life is going so fast. I feel like it was yesterday i got back to sweden, like it definitely wasnt more than two months since i saw my american friends for the last time. I honestly cant understand how its all over. It doesnt make sense in my brain. But neither does it make sense that i was actually there. It was just a dream, and boom. its gone. it left me, without anyone. And the worst part is that im forgetting about it. i cant help it. the memories are hidden somewhere deep down in my brain. and i cant find them anymore. im looking and looking to remember and relive those memories, but i cant find them. I dont understand why. Its like this whole year, with all its experiences and memories, is just slipping away through my fingers. time after time, i try to grab it, but i cant. it hurts. i want to chase it, run after it and never stop until i catch it. but its pointless. it will never come back to me. from now on, it will only be more and more distanced to me.